Sunday is Mother's Day. I'm now about the age you were when Byron & I were born - about a year and a half apart. You had three teenagers then!
Now that I have children (21, 15 & 12) I realize more, how difficult being a mom must have been for you. Especially when I was 11 & Dad was diagnosed w/ cancer. When I was 14 and he lost that battle. And you - w/ your numerous health issues & long hospital stays. NEVER driving. Never working outside the home after you were married. And each of us kids presented you w/ additional challenges. I for one, was much too selfish & strong willed & argumentative ... & Byron with his Downs Syndrome... How ever did you do what you did? ... and how did you accept what you couldn't do?
Despite all you couldn't do, I distinctly remember you saying "Prayer is powerful." - & sensing that when you prayed, God listened. And sooo I'd often ask you to pray for me - & I knew you would (was it bc you were so grateful to be able to do something(!) for me?). And I wonder - am I now SO incredibly blessed to have it so much easier than you ever did - bc during all that time that I resented what you couldn't do for me - instead you prayed for me?!
I'm SO sorry, mom, for anything & everything I ever did - & didn't do(!) - that made your life more difficult ... & I just want to say thank you - from the bottom of my heart - for all you did(!) - which I now realize was probably done to the degree it was, in large part because of all you couldn't do.
I miss you. and I love you.
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P.S. It's been over 5 yrs since you went to heaven. How I wish I could've seen your face - how shocked! & thrilled! you must've been - when your "baby"/Byron arrived there so soon after you did! Seems God waited until you (my prayer warrior!) were gone - to really bring me to my knees ... in the circumstances surrounding his death.
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