Edited. Of course! Can't seem to let something go these days without tweaking it later - and then again - and again, etc.... ;)
Church was full this past Sunday. We hadn't been in church in a while. We sat in the
second to the last row. And I wonder ... What in the world was everyone else doing while our Pastor stood up there and talked directly to me the whole time?! (- ever feel that way??) Truth be told, this seems to happen quite often when I'm in church and it's one, if not the reason I still go to church.
October is the month that several ministries kick back into full swing at our church so it seems that's why our Pastor took time on this first Sunday of October to remind us that according to Revelation 3:1, 2 there is such a thing as dead ministry (my note: wasted time!) and that:
According to Jesus, it is possible to do much we might call Christian work or ministry which, in the end, amounts to nothing.
If I was a bit more charismatic I might have shouted a hearty "AMEN!" right then and there. But I'm not. So I didn't. But I thought "Did he read my blog/most recent post?!" Could he have possibly known that I was in the midst of wrestling with what he was speaking on?!
With the understanding that it's not possible to spend too much time serving God and that God knows I'm only human, I've been wrestling with how and where to best "spend" my time. If you read my most recent post perhaps you sensed my frustration? After pondering Sunday's sermon it dawned on me that what I really want to do is invest my time wisely - in things that will have eternal value.
I love my church - and the problem I am trying to address here ..well, that part of the story really IS all about me. And I am involved in ministry at church...one that I believe encourages relationship - but we're modifying it for various reasons, some of which are totally related to this post.
Long story a little less long ...
(Emily Dickenson said that long before I ever did :)
("now" being the key word here)
41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things,42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”
Sermon Notes - Sunday, October 2, 2011:
- motivated by self-glorification is dead. (It's not about me!)
- motivated to fit comfort's demands is dead. (Take up your cross. Self Denial)
- managed w/o recourse to the Holy Spirit's involvement is dead.
- missing Divine authorization is dead.
- miserly performed is dead.
- modeled on the world and not upon the Kingdom of God is dead.
- ministered without love is dead.
Ministry is worship - and should be a way of life/living. My thoughts: - I know this! If anyone knows this, I know this - I even did a "Time for the Kids" about this and wrote a post about this... sooo... why can't I seem to figure out how to actually "do this"?!